Game ON!!!

I certainly hate challenges and I should be use to them because I got brother that all they did was challenge me and each other to shit all the time

 and I certainly do not ever turn down a challenge 

So I'm taking on the 30 blogs in 30 days challenge that Sunshinestar110 has passed my way.....

Being tomorrow I shall be on the writing thang!!! 

please pray for me

Well Ok!

So DMV and I had to double back twice to sure we were reading this right!!.........and all we could do was laugh and say..well ok!!!

50 Things You didn't know

1. What time did you get up this morning? 
6 am....Zahree is up and screaming around that time.

2. How do you like your steak?
Well done.
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?
Sex and the city 2
4. What is your favorite TV show?
My fair wedding, Army Wives,  and The Game

5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?
Los Angeles, Italy, or Spain

6. What did you have for breakfast?
a peach and orange juice


7. What is your favorite cuisine?
Fish!! I love Salmon 

8. What foods do you dislike? or rather don't prefer?
Pork...all forms of it
9. Favorite place to eat?
Ruth Chris and Zola's

10. Favorite dressing?
Thousand island and creamy Italian
11. What kind of vehicle do you drive?
Yukon Denali and BMW 745i

12. What are your favorite clothes?
jeans and t-shirt...I'm that kind of girl

13. Where would you visit if you had the chance?
Paris!

14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full?
Always half full gotta see the positive in things.

15. Where would you want to retire?
Florida fo sure
16. Favorite time of day?
After Zahree is sleep and its just me with peace and quiet.

17. Where were you born?
New Haven, CT
18. What is your favorite sport to watch?
Basketball but Young LA has turned me onto Soccer

22. People watcher?
all the damn time. I like see ppl being themselves when they think no one is looking.

23. Are you a morning person or a night person?
Night owl
24. Do you have any pets?
Yes..Iguana named Kermit and a puppy named Lu-Lu

25. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share?
I'm thinking about getting a new tattoo..but i have no idea where.
26. What did you want to be when you were little?
Neurologist
27. What is your best childhood memory?
playing chess with my grandfather
28. Are you a cat or dog person?
Dog..We got a boxer

29. Are you married? 
No..one day I hope

30. Always wear your seat belt?
Yes..I ain't too cool for the safe belt (kanye voice)

31. Been in a car accident?
two or three of them

32. Any pet peeves?
Slamming doors and late people
33. Favorite Pizza Toppings?
Pineapple, Pepperoni,  Onions

34. Favorite Flower?
Orchids
35. Favorite ice cream?
Birthday cake and moose tracks
36. Favorite fast food restaurant?
Checkers
37. How many times did you fail your driver's test?
None..my mother had scared me shitless so i had o choice but to pass it

38. From whom did you get your last email?
Tabi

39. What store would you max out your credit card?
Forever 21 and Macy's
40. Do anything spontaneous lately?
hmmmmm..no 

41. Like your job?
For the most part...i'm my own boss so no one to answer to

42. Broccoli?
extra soft with cheese

43. What was your favorite vacation?
Hawaii with the fam.
44. Last person you went out to dinner with?
DMV
45. What are you listening to right now?
Pastor Troy...I'm in my gangsta mood

46. What is your favorite color?
Green

47. How many tattoos do you have?
Seven

48. What do you like to do when nobody else is around?
bite my nails and sometimes my toes...Don't judge me!!!!

49. Favorite Movie?
He got Game
50. Coffee drinker?
sometimes

Vacation Time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

In 24 hours I shall be boarding a plane and soon after be laying on the white sand beaches of Turks and Caicos!!!!  I can't wait to get the hell away from DC and take a deep breath of fresh air and have 5 days of relaxation. Things here have been out of control the last couple of weeks I feel like I haven't had time to think let alone sleep. I need a break from DMV who has been working my last nerves since lord knows when.  He felt some type of way about me and Young LA ..(straight face) I wanted to care about him and his feeling but DMV sometimes tries to sell me nothing but hoop dreams and I just can't with him anymore. He side eyed me, stop talking to me for a while because of Young LA but that fool doesn't know that I know the last time he flew away from home he was accompanied by a female which he continued to lie to me about...soooooooooooooo fuck your feeling DMV! Work has been killing me softly, so much to do so little time and I don't want to see that office for awhile. Of course with wanting to get away I don't want to leave my baby behind especially since I know he is on a emotional roller coaster since his father has missed yet another weekend with picking him up. His little feelings have been all over the place since this 3rd let down. I feel like the worst mother ever leaving him behind to soak up the sun with Young LA.  My mother reassured me that is not the case and everything will be fine while I'm gone but I can't help but to feel like I'm abandoning him (sad face) and Yes Young LA is still around making my day a little brighter with all that he is and does so spending these next 6 days with him are going to be great.wee haven't really had much time to see each other since he was back home in the west!

I plan on taking some time off too just to spend some well needed time with Zahree. I know this whole daddy being around thing and some of the disappoint that has come with it is new to him. I just want to him a chance to chill and be a little bit happier. Thinking about Sesame Place  or Water Country USA just something to take his mind off of things but Of course I know he will want DMV to be involved in all this so I'm sure I'll have a blog or two from that experience (wipes sweat)........So I'll see y'all on the flip side maybe I'll have something great to say about Turks and Caicos.

Love

I just want the kind of love that my parents share.  They have been together since my mother was 16 and my father 18..that's 30 years of togetherness and 26 years of marriage.  They haven't always had the best of  the best relationship but I watched them and their commitment for each other grow over the years and become stronger than before.  They often fought and yelled and at one point of time in my life they even split up and went their separate ways.  I thought at that moment that my parents were done and over with but the love they have for each other was much stronger than what tore them apart.

I watched my parents last night as we celebrated the fact that my mothers cancer is once again in remission and god has granted her some more time with us(wow typing that just now brought tears to my eyes) and my parents anniversary that I realized that when I get married I want the bond and love that Sheree and Raymond share.  My father has always supported my mother in whatever she wanted to do and my mother who is a big dreamer changed up her game plan from month to month. when she wanted to quit her job my father said sure why not...when she wanted to open a day care my father gave her money to support her idea and when she made that come true she moved on to a wainting go to cosmetology school and open up a salon my father stood right by her side as she made it all happen.  I watched my father stare my mother in the eyes with the same madly in love stare through all her battles with cancer even when she pushed him to move on and find someone else he never left her side. even when we lived in a different location away from my father while they worked out there problems my father continue to come over everyday and do all that a husband and father is suppose to do.  He has always given my mother his best and in return my mother has done the same.  I know that my mother gave up alot to be with my father especially since my grandfather hated him with a passion.  She got pregnant at 17 with my brother and gave up her dream of being a lawyer to be a mother and wife.  While my father worked to better our lives my mother stayed home and raised us without ever looking back. She held my fathers hand through all of his hard times and good ones...and when my father started to give up on himself and dream my mother was the one who pulled him back and helped him reach his goal. And she pulled out of the relationship with my father she said it was only for him to see what really matters in life.

Admire my parents alot for enduring so much with each other and still being madly in love to this day.  In this day in age its rare for a couple to be together for this long....divorce....cheating....separation....money.... is all we hear about now when we talk about marriage. I just want a love as pure and clean as the two people i saw last night cuddled up to each other whispering sweet thought in each other ears and stealing quiet kissing moment when they thought no one was listening.  I just hope and pray that one day that I can share that kind of love with soemone.

Disappointment

I tried my hardest to believe that he had maybe made a change and is not the jerk that he use to be but i guess I was wrong. Now it doesn't bother me not one bit when Zahree father disappoints me but when he does it to my son it rubs me wrong. I hate making excuses for people and especially him but to save whatever relationship my son has with his father I figure i got to do what I got to do.

Thursday Moe was suppose to come get Zaharee as soon as he got out of school,  being that my son knew this he was on pins and needles all day with excitement that he could spend more than a day and a half with his father and his new sibling.I thought everything was going to run smoothly being that so far his father hadn't failed him yet but I watched that come to a tragic close starting with Thursday.  Zaharee sat in that window for hours waiting to see his fathers blue car pull up so he could spend the remaining of the week with him.  I couldn't drag him away from that spot. he wouldn't leave to eat, watch TV or to see DMV when he came over. At one point I watched my lil 4 year say a prayer that his father showed up and soon. So after countless hours of waiting I finally got him away from that window and into bed..a sad moment I would have to say to see my son so heart broken.  No phone call, email, text, or Morris code from his father explaining anything about what was going on. So I tried to give him the benefit of the doubt and go with maybe an emergency came about and he just couldn';t make it..yep that what I wanted to believe. Around 2am in the morning my phone begins to ring off the hook and look who it was Moe's with more than enough excuses on why he couldn't make it..none of them I believed but to ease my son's pain I explained it all to him in the morning and how his father was coming Friday night to pick him up. Friday came and once again my son sits in the window for hours looking and waiting for his father...and nothing!  I call him no answer..I try again and this time the phone picks up and all I hear is giggling, and loud music...Oh really?..Finally around 11pm when my son was well placed in his bed after crying himself to death..Moe calls with the 'yeah, so I had to work late" I wanted to leap through the phone and strangle his ass for calling me hours later with this Bs excuse and for the fact that his ass had no idea he but called me and I knew the truth. I declined him to opportunity to come and get Zaharee on Saturday because he had broke my son's hard one to many times in two day and of course he called me every bitch he could think of but so be it I just couldn't bare another day of my son being so heart broken and staring out that window. I'm so torn about what my next move should be with this whole thing...do i just chop this up as him just having bad judgement this one time or him being the Moe I know and doing what he does best giving out empty promises....

Unthinkable

Ugh, Tez keeps telling me he just turned 30

having dreams of being single

forever he’s getting worried

& I’m scared too because I’m in the same

boat

good women are rare too, none of them have come close

me I haven't changed much, you know how I play

better safe than sorry

instead of searching for substance at every single party

baby being part of this life I feel like I’m bound to end up with somebody that’s been with everybody

I need you to rescue me from my destiny

I’m trying to live right &

give you whatever’s left of me

cause you know life is what we make it &

a chance is like a picture, it’d be nice if you just take it. Or let me take it for ya I’m just down to ride

or we can roll around the city

until we finally decide

I got more than a thing for you, tattoo & ink

for you

right over my heart girl I do the unthinkable...

Now I wasn't really in love with  that Alicia Keys Unthinkable song until 

this Dude Drake touched it!!

His verse is so powerful I love it!!

Thank you Drake!

I woke up this morning and totally forgot it was my birthday! Hell I can't even remember most of the weekend..Miami was great to your girl, I'm going to miss this place! my flight leaves at 4 and I don't want to go back!

I woke up to a knock on my room door and it was room service with breakfast for me and the girl, courtesy of  my mommy and daddy!!! Damn I love them!  I also received a phone call from DMV which was surprising because we haven't talked in 2 weeks i think....i would tell why but that is a whole another blog post.  Him and I chatted for awhile and he ended the call in a hurry.  The front desk called soon after saying i had a package up front and need to pick up. I thought it was from my parents too but  it was flowers and new purse from DMV!! it was a present surprise that reminds me I need to call and thank him!

well, this 27 years have had its share of up and downs...tear, smiles, and side eyes but I wouldn't change or alter any of it!! I thank god and Allah for blessing me with 27 years on this earth and hope they grant me 27 more!

I gotta go I'm off to see my baby!