Does It Matter

I've been sitting on this for awhile...well maybe that long it was brought up the hair salon on Saturday and I didn't really know how I felt about it yet until maybe yesterday *shrugs* sometimes I got to sleep on things before I have an response to it.

So after passing this along to my friends and a couple of my girls cousins I decided to lay out for blogger too.  While in the hair salon on Saturday the question popped up in the salon because of the situation one of the girls in there was in.  Now I'm going to ask  Does height matter to you? would your whole outlook for a relationship with a guy because he's shorter than you?

Now my thought on that situation was once you must be at least 6 feet to ride the ride but that changed once I met DMV and Que because the both of them are on the small size...DMV being maybe 5 9' and Que being a towering  5 6' not that much shorter than me and DMV is still taller than me but I my cousin loves short mean she says they love the fact she has long legs and all the good stuff and she added that the short have been waxing her ass nicely..TMI? lol

Surprise, Surprise

I met Young LA a couple of month ago after a wizards game when he came and sat himself at the table that I was sharing with my friends. He was funny cute and had his own thing going on but he is 2 years younger than me :-/  Ever since I've let that situation with Que burn I have been spending alot of time with Young LA. At first it was just searching all over the DMV for him a new place to live , then it turned into dinner, and these little gym dates now I see him almost every evening when I get home. My son also think he is the best thing since slice beard and thats always a plus in trying to win my heart.  We recently had an whole discussion about things that I wanted for my birthday which is approaching soon. I told him i didn't really want anything maybe dinner At this spot downtown and but nothing to major. Especially since he did take me to the Celtic/Caves game ..I don't want anything from him. i don't remember tell him this but maybe i did but i said something wanting a boxer puppy but not only for me but for Zahree too.


Today when Young LA stopped by before he headed back home to Cali he brought in the house all these boxes. One by one he sat them down and he whispered something Zahree's ear and they dashed back outside to the car.... and in he brought this............

My heart stopped beating when she came running in the door, Young LA really is putting in work now. I hardly even remember saying that I wanted a boxer puppy but I have been searching online for me. he told me he wanted to make sure I had something special for my birthday since he wasn't going to be here to celebrate it with me.  Oh Young LA is trying to win me over and get himself some brownie point I ain't mad you LA.


Her is only 8 weeks old and as of right now she hasn't been named yet but we have a few names in the running, either  LuLu, Sugar, Honey or Chloe.  Please let me know which one you like I gotta name her soon!

Up Next Orlando

Shout Out Boston for knocking them damn Caves out in the second round just like I knew ya'll would!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!








Anywhooooo, yeah so I ain't got much time so this joint right here is going to be short.  The game was out of control and I loved it! The excitement of the fans and all the noise made it a game worth missing work
for. Young LA  is taking good care of my while we were here....dinner...5 five star hotel a little shopping. Matter of fact I love Boston I wouldn't mind living here except they get tooooooooooooooo much snow for me. My time here is coming to a end because we are currently at the airport heading to NYC for the rest of the weekend...surprise surprise I thought this morning when we got up it was back to DC I  was kind of sad  i was enjoying his company but once we check out hotel he said I'm not ready for DC lets go NYC for the weekend and of course I was all for it!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Its good to get away from Home, work, and life for a lil mini vacay and not have to deal with life....until Monday morning.  DMV has been blowing my phone up for the past 24hrs he found out where i am at and who i am with and I guess he feels some type of way about the situation buy hey you doing you so I'm doing me a girl can't wait on him forever. And to much disbelief Que called last night and left me a message talking I  miss u and been thinking about u alot...why haven't I called him....yeah so ready to deal with that so I'm going to forget about that until I touch back home!


I guess I'm being kind of rude right now...ole boy just gave me the side eye..so I'm out....

Go Boston!!!

If you don't know let me tell you that I'm a huge Celtics fan!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was breed to love them and that I do! My father is originally from Boston so being a fan of any other team is uncivilized in my house.

So needless to say I was tuned in last night to watch my Celtics gain the lead in the series over Cleveland!!!! Sorry Lebron that you are going to be gone in the second round but Ray, Kevin and the crew are going to close this out soon...ok ok back to the reason for this blog.........

Last night while watching Boston take the win over Bron Bron and them with Young LA(i met him a while back he shall be blogged about soon) we got to talking about how I  have never been privileged enough to sit at a playoff game and enjoy the intense basketball that would be taking place.  I thought about dropping big pesos on tickets last year but I just could phase that at all.  It would be great to witness that but I got my mind of something else then blowing $$$ on a game.  Young LA asked me once doing our conversation if I could get off work for a couple of days I side eyed him a little bit but still answered him with yes...later on he asked me if I could find someone to watch my son for those day, once again I side eyed him and answer i'm sure I could.  But he never spoke one word of it again nor did I ask him why he needed to know I just dropped the subject and kept it moving. We watched the  highlights from the game which Boston won and Young LA was out the door, he turned to hug me and whispered in my ear our flight leaves Thursday morning for Boston make sure you can make it...Happy Birthday"  I thought I heard him wrong so I ask excuse me...he smiled a little and said Take off of work find a babysitter and come to Boston with me so we can watch Cleveland serve it up to Boston *side eye*. Excited am I am and was last night but I played cool for Young LA!! So of course I'm going to take him up on his offer and head to Boston with him and of course I'm leaving work early today because the girl has to find a couple of fly outfits to take along with me!!!!!!!!!!!  So Happy Fuckin' Birthday to me!!! A whole a month early I could get use to this!!!

GO BOSTON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My mother brought to my attention last night that I always have a crush on the weirdest people from Pharrell, Kanye, Game..etc... . hmmm.. that may be very true but I say I just love the guy who is confident in himself and sometimes that's the dud who is tatted up, with plugs in his ears. or maybe he is the one who dresses a little outrageous or loves to skateboard instead of taking it to the football field. Its something about the Nerd in them that just turns me on. Truth be told DMV isn't that kind of guy nor is Que they are far from that but my heart lies with my weird guys. That all being said I'm in love this guy right here....

Travis McCoy of Gym Class heroes!!

I often tell my friends and parents that my husband will look just like this guy! Tatted up and what the word sees as weird.  Its just something about him just makes me wanna jump him!!!

He Knows Me So Well!!

I woke up mother's day to complete silence no Nickjr. blasting, no cars going vroom on my bedroom floor just silence. After listening to the silence for a couple of minute I soon got worried because I have a 4 year old who if silent is doing something he has no business doing. I called his name a couple of times and no answer but when I hit the bottom of the steps he was standing there along with my brother with his homemade card which still had glue dripping from it and his homemade gift bag. Zahree informed me that my card and gift couldn't be open until we ate the delicious breakfast that he made for me with help of His Uncle's Jay and Man...pancakes, bacon, oatmeal and cereal caption crunch to be exact which I know my son put together because that his fave.  I  open up my gift and feel in love once again...

my boo really knows the way to my heart and I must admit that my 4 year old must have great style because he picked these out all by himself and all my brother did was pay for them!!! I love them and Couldn't wait to put them on today and shoe off  the great gift my baby gave me. I love him so mmmmmmuuuuuuuuccccccccchhhhhhhhhhh and his sweet card that was dripping with glue with all his pretty hearts and flowers simply said "you are the only mommy for me!" awwwwwwwwwww... and of course it made me cry and kiss him up lol

Help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love her with all my heart and I feel like the only person who understand me sometimes is her but I'm often confused by her actions and decisions with men.  Rae is the former ex girlfriend of my brother and ever since the day we met we have been the best of friends.  We share alot in common like the non supportive baby daddy(who is NOT my brother), being single and wanted to get married but sometimes I'm confused by her actions when it comes to men.  Rae is the nice southern belle from Texas, she cooks, cleans, and I would almost do everything that a male would want from her but sometimes I think she gets clouded by what it takes to please a man and forget about what it takes to please herself.  She was in a world wind love affair with my older brother Jay a couple of years ago that I watch fizzle out slowly mostly because and I quote " she just wouldn't let up off me. she gave me me too much too fast and it could be seen as something else then what it really is"  Rae cut off alot of what made her happy to please him. She stopped going to FL to visit her friends, never really had little to no time for them and dedicated all her free time to Jay. I thinks he gets lost in trying to keep a man that she loses her friends instead  Maybe its was just too crowding for Jay so they split ways.  We go out often and I watch her let men pass her by because she is so wrapped up in her southern ways...I don't approach men is  her famous line so she usually  plays the background until I or someone else brings a group of guys for us to entertain.  I don't push her like I use to talk to men I just let her play her roll maybe its because I grew up in the "city" so to say that going after a man first is something that is normal for me, but to each's own.  Last night we had this long discussion about the men in our lives and wanting to get married and live happily ever after. I Listened to her talk to me like we 40 years old and have just wasted our life away and as much as she fights it I think she needs to have a man to feel complete which is something I certainly can't sign off on.  She often puts herself in "relationships" with the wrong people over and over again, from the dudes who needs her to make himself to look better or the pussy chaser who sells her hoop dreams to keep her around she has entertained them all.  I want to grab Rae sometimes and shake sense into her because I feel like she is so smart and so stupid all wrapped up in one body she gives the best advice sometimes but forget to follow the shit herself. I think her is biggest problem with men is she rushes into things with them....mostly rushing into sex far to fast that her judgement get crowded.  Too much sexual talk, too much sexual advances and finally sex she gives them way too much way too fast.   Once she gives them the panties...its nothing but that going on from that point forward, Idk if she just doesn't see what I see or she just doesn't want to face the fact that she fucked up but whatever it is I just want so much more for her. I never open my mouth and speak on any of her male situations because the last time I did it caused a riff between the two of us and she basically accused me of being jealous in so many words. I want her to know that I love and care for her but her actions with males are so off without offending her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday and I'm still tired

Its Thursday and i am still trying to catch up on my life and sleep from the weekend.  I must be getting old because I remember pulling a full weekend and still coming in to work on Monday and feeling great, yeah thats not what is going on present day.

I must say I did enjoy my weekend it was good to be in the company of man and get a little male attention cause as a woman I need that from time to time.  DMV was in rare form last weekend I swear, he must have a  catch the scent that I was entertaining someone else because he really put in his dues.  I spent everyday with him until Monday morning when he was off to NYC.  I didn't think I could put up with someone besides my son for that long but I was proved wrong.  We clubbed Friday night together along with some of my friends, I think that was the first time in a long time that I have been that drunk a reallllllly long time and the fact I was hurting from that damn run he forced me into wasn't a good mix at all. I was trying to stay up straight all night but all my leg muscles were on fire! and of course I was getting bodied so that was just extra work on these legs *wipes sweat*  Saturday morning I woke up to DMV and my son in the kitchen cooking breakfast and watching of course videos *side eye* I usually don't let him watch that stuff its just too much for him but when DMV gets around he like to be so interested in whatever he is doing.  I sat back and watch them scramble eggs, flip pancakes and try to figure out y the turkey bacon won't crisp up right and thought to myself this is how I wanted things to be in my life right now, its how I imagined spending my life but of course life throws you a curve ball and things don't always go the way you planned. I enjoyed it while i could and I know how much Zahree loves him and he was just in heaven with him being around.   I slept as long as possible especially since Zahree was with DMV but I did pull myslef together to go outside in that slavery heat and see DMV perform. Why I was outside in the sun..hot as hell I shall never know but I made it and watched him do what he does best entertain.  I love to see him on stage its like a whole new world for him, he is just so happy and inspired every time.  Zahree loves it too , he pulled me aside after DMV got off the stage and said mommy when i get big I want to do that !!!  I didn't know if i should support that dream or have him aim for something else :-/  but I'm sure before its time for him to pursue his dream that he would have changed his mind a thousand and one times.  I felt like a proud mother watching DMV perform and sign autographs We once sat down with each other and talked about the moment many of times and to See him live it out is crazy to me. He smiled, took pictures and occasionally glanced over to me and winked his eye..sigh..he always knows how to make me feel special even when we are in a room, well in this case a park full of people. He has always had the power to make me feel loved and the only woman in his life even when I know he has and is still entertaining others but for that one moment it made feel like he only belonged to me. He did give me a break for a couple of hours and took Zahree so I could catch up on work and school but of course that didn't happen all I did was sleep and sleep some more which I'm glad I did because that night I was once again in 4inch heels, a dress and cup in hand at the club with DMV  getting my party on! I remember when I was like 19yrs old and party 2 nighst in a row was nothing but now at 27 party like a rock star is no walk in the park at all.  When I finally laid my head down again the sun was peaking threw my blinds trying to say hello! No sleep again on Sunday because I was down Georgetown shopping with the girls after only 5 hours of sleep and once I got back home I was wide awoke to entertain Zahree.  So here it is Thursday and I'm at my desk trying to keep my eyes open to at least 3pm and I thought that once this day was over and done i could sleep, DMV just called to say he was back and stopping by. Lord I don't think I will ever sleep again in life.  I know I should be telling him no and sleep but I enjoy all the male attention he has been giving up and lord knows when he will head out of town again for months on end and I'll see him again.  So I'll take the time in way I can get it.

That is exactly how i feel about this whole workout thing. When I first started this Teddy and I were doing very well going to the gym every other day and changing our food habits reading upon vitamins we needed to take we was so sincere but yeah I figured out today that I'm all about the new clothes and shoes and not the whole workout thing.   I only want to get my workout on to put on whatever cute outfit that I have found to workout in, target is the best at that! Shout them out real quick.  I go to the gym and do just about nothing just prance around in my skin tight pants and shirts and swing my cute ponytail around.  I'm a sad case I really want to be serious about this staying healthy thing I just can't bring myself to do it.  Today I suited up in the cutest black and gold outfit and heading to the gym so i thought. I stopped at least a thousand times to do a thousand different things......I shopped, ate, shopped, and then finally pulled in the gym parking lot which i never made it in,got side tracked by the furniture store and now I'm laying across my bed, blogging and shit.  And I just caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror and I look pretty damn cute lol..I was serious about this whole gym thing a couple of days last week but that was just because DMV was here and he is all about running and shit so that's what I did run in the cutest outfit I could find.  I thought  I was going to die there with that fool who wanted me to run 4 miles...I faked the hell out of that being in shape I paid the place when I hit the house I spent my Saturday trying to get right from the day before.  This week is almost over so it is no hope for me to start on this health kick...I have already made plans for the time I set aside for the gym *hang head in shame* so next week I plan to get oh so serious about this and stop trying to be cute and do this for real........................................................................................................................................................................................................I hope!

From the moment I copped this CD i feel in love with this song. I played it over and over in my car, office and in the house it just struck a cord with me. I felt like he was talking about me, telling the story of my life well maybe the story of my romantic life. I am that girl he is rapping about I do all the things he spittin about :-/ I'm still working on changing that. This is just one of those songs I could vibe with and relate to in so many ways. Its my favorite song to date and that says alot because I'm usually over a song or Cd soon after I purchase it but this one I can hear over and over again and never be too tired of it. I absolutely love Wale and this song...and it doesn't hurt that he is from the DMV either!!!

Hints the end gets me every time when he recites this poem......


See all i wanna do is be relevant
Just tell me that i ever meant anything more
That you could ever see me and you in another light
But its like the dark women indoors in the darkest nights by the wrong man
see all of them have made you incapable of a first impression
what I do is i channel my aggression with no cable or antenna
Just intentions to impress you if capable
Hoping that the material possesions can materialize to a better you
Cars, nothing i drive can drive you out of this state of mind
For such an ugly picture and
Money, nothing i buy can buy more time for your ears to tell your heart to listen to it
Diamonds, a girls best friend is what they say but believe me with the right allegience shorty you gonna shine anyways
and everyday that goes by is a couple more lines in her diary
the day before is better than the present
so anyone presented in her presence endures these life sentences
theres no key for release
no reason to be around
her minds in the clouds
she writes it all down
in her diary....

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